well ... its winter. and i fucking hate winter. but i bitch alot so what is new.

anyways life is decent. i have friends, a job, stuff to do.
the city is what i wanted in life. but im questioning it know
as i do everything else.

Yeah, i party, yeah i drink. Yeah i meet guys and i get to say no.
woopydoo. idk i feel like stuff is missing.
probably someone to do this with.

But once again in my awesome life, i chase away or fuck up everything
wooo go nina.
i miss love
i miss friends
i miss having somewhere i can go when something goes wrong
sure i could go home. but where is home exactly?
where my heart is? fuck. no. they are mad at me
where my family is? fuck. no. they would laugh at me
where my house is? fuck no. thats where i am.
where im loved? fuck. i dont know... where that is.

im not wanting sympathy or saying im not wrong. i am no doubt
i just wanted to update you guys on whats up..

to summarize. im missing out on my life now by remembering instead of living